Continuing in my usual state, my always adorable Jesus came while I was telling Him: “Tell me, oh Jesus, how it comes about that after You have disposed the soul to suffering, and she loves suffering, knowing the goodness contained in it, and she suffers almost with passion, believing that her destiny is to suffer — at that very moment You take this treasure away from her?” And Jesus: "My daughter, My Love is great, My Rule is insuperable, My Teachings sublime, My Instructions Divine, creative and inimitable. Therefore, in order to make all things —0 great or small, natural or spiritual, painful or pleasant — acquire one single color and have one single value, once the soul has been trained to suffer and arrives at the point of loving it, I let this suffering pass into her will as her own property. So, every time I will send her a pain, she will always be disposed to suffer it and to love it, since she keeps within her will the property and the dispositions. I look at things in the will, and it is as if the soul always suffered, even if she does not suffer.
“Further, in order for pleasure to have the same value as suffering, and in order for praying, working, eating, sleeping — in sum, everything, whatever they might be — to have one single value, since all can be if things are of My Will, I allow the soul to practice all things in My Will with holy indifference. So, it may seem to the soul that just as I give her something, I take it away from her, but it is not true. Rather, it happens that at the beginning, when the soul is not yet well trained, she is sensitive in the suffering, praying or loving. But when, with practice, these things pass in her will as her own property, the sensitivity ceases; and as she occasionally needs to use these Divine properties which I made her acquire, she begins to exercise them, as the opportunity arises, with firm step and imperturbable heart. For example: does suffering occur? She finds within herself the strength and the life of suffering. Must she pray? She finds within herself the life of prayer; and so forth with all the rest."
According to what Jesus says, it seems to me this way. Let’s suppose that I received a gift. Until I make up my mind on where I should keep that gift, I look at it, I appreciate it, and I feel a certain sensitivity in loving that gift; but if I keep it under lock and key, no longer watching it, that sensitivity ceases. With this I cannot say that the gift is no longer mine, rather, it is certainly more mine since I keep it locked, while before it was in danger and someone could have stolen it from me.
Jesus continues: "In My Will all things hold each other’s hands, all look alike and all are in agreement. Therefore, suffering gives rise to pleasure and says: ‘I have done my part in the Will of God; now you do yours, and only if Jesus wants it will I place myself in the field again.’ Fervor says to coldness: ‘You will be more ardent than me if you will content yourself with staying in the will of my Eternal Love.’ Prayer to work, sleep to vigil, illness to health... everything; all things among themselves, it seems that each one of them leaves its place to the other to be in the field — but each one of them has its own distinct place. Then, it is not necessary for one who lives in My Will to move to place herself in the act of doing what I want; she is already in Me, like an electric wire, doing whatever I want."