I continue my living in the Divine Volition, and since my sweet Jesus often deprives me of His lovable presence, I call the Sovereign Mama to my help, the Angels, the Saints, to help me and lend me their love, their adorations, that I may do from the earth what they do in Heaven, so that, drawn by the very love of Heaven, my Jesus may come to His little exiled one, to she who so much longs for Him. But, heedless of my hard martyrdom and as though despising my sighs, my yearnings, instead of having pity on me He escapes me, perhaps contenting Himself to look from afar at my terrible state. Ah! maybe if He feels the love of Heaven in me, that He likes so much, He will come and will no longer leave me alone and abandoned for so long.
But while I was speaking nonsense in my interior, my sweet Jesus, my dear Life, came out from within me, and clasping me in His arms, told me: “My daughter, I do like the Love of Heaven, but that of the earth I like more. That of the earth is always new for Me, it is new gains that I make, new glory. On the other hand, that of Heaven I already possess, no one can take it away from Me—it is all My own thing. But that of the earth I am in the Act of acquiring, and many times I lose the new gains I should make, because souls do not always give Me the love and the glory they should give Me.
“Now, you must know that when souls die in My Grace they are confirmed in the nature of Love, in the nature of Glory and in the Life of the Divine Will. So, in Heaven everything is nature in all the Blessed, therefore they give Me nothing more; rather, I give to them, constantly, that Continuous Act of Joys, of Happiness, of Beatitudes ever New and without end. This is why I am all eyes over the earth, as though putting all Heaven aside—because Heaven is Mine; and I fix on and become all attention for the soul who lives in the exile, who, even though she does not possess the nature of Heaven, wants to give Me the New Gains of Love, of Glory and of Adoration.
“If you knew how your love hovers around within My Will, how it rises between Heaven and earth, investing all created things, and breaching even into Heaven, up to wherever My Divine Will extends, it gives Me the New Possession of the love of the creature who has let herself be invested by the Power of My Supreme Fiat; and while the possession of Love reaches Me, a New one she prepares—that of Glory. And as you return to repeat your acts, your acts are always New for Me because, indeed, you did not have them before. Therefore, you are always New in the Love, in the Glory, in the Adoration you give Me, because, echoing in you, My Will communicates to you that New Act that It possesses by Its own Nature.
“So, what I do in Heaven, giving to all the Blessed that New Act, never interrupted, of Joys and of unspeakable Contentments, you are destined to give to Me from the earth, in the Light and Power of My Will. Therefore, be attentive on following Its rapid flight.”
As my beloved Jesus continued to deprive me of Himself, I felt so very oppressed, and I thought to myself how everything was over, and many other things that it seems useless to me to say on paper.
And my lovable Jesus, placing His holy hands under my shoulders to as though take me in His arms, told me: “My daughter, how heavy you have become—don’t you know that oppression weighs the soul down, and if I want to take you in My arms I have to make an effort to lift you? On the other hand, My Will empties the weight of nature, and Its Light, removing the gloom of what is human, renders her light—light and capable of any sacrifice; and giving her the wings of love, It gives to the soul the first qualities of the Celestial Fatherland, that knows neither oppression nor darkness, but daylight without sunset and joy that never ends.
“And besides, what would you say if you heard the sun say: ‘Everything is over—I am no longer sun, because my Creator does not constantly add more light for me.’
“You, I believe, would answer the sun: ‘I see you always sun, because your Maker has taken nothing away from you of the light He gave you. At the most, if He kept adding light, you would have been stronger and more refulgent in your light.’
“So do I answer you: ‘You are always sun, because the Sun of My Will and of the knowledges about It, more than light, reigns in you.’ Neither I nor anyone else can snatch from you a single one of the many knowledges that you possess about My Eternal Fiat.
“And only because I do not constantly add more about It, as if what I have told you were nothing, you say: ‘Everything is over,’ as if this Sun were extinguished in you? It takes too much, My daughter, to extinguish this Sun of My Will, nor will you yourself be able to escape Its Eternal Rays that, invading your soul, eclipse from you everything that does not belong to this Sun. Therefore, follow Its Light and wait with patience for New Light to come and be added, so as to render the Sun of My Will more refulgent in you.”