I was saying to my sweet Jesus: “I don’t know - the more You say You give to me by means of Your Holy Volition, the more wretched and ugly I feel. I should feel better - more good; instead, it is all the opposite.”
And Jesus told me: “My daughter, the more the grain of My Will grows in you, the more you will feel the misery of your straw. In fact, when the ear begins to form, grain and straw are one single thing; but when the life of the ear keeps forming, as the grain matures, the straw is detached from it, and remains only as defense of the grain. Therefore, the more wretched you feel, the more the grain of My Will keeps forming in you, and is close to perfect maturation. The straw within you is nothing other than your weak nature which, living together with the Sanctity and the Nobility of My Will, feels its misery even more.” …