I am under the Eternal waves of the Divine Volition, and if some thought escapes me, these waves make themselves stronger and suffocate my thought and my fears in a way that immediately pacifies me, and I run together with the Divine Fiat. However the thought often torments me, about if I still go out from within It. My God, what suffering! I feel myself die only thinking of it. It seems to me that I will no longer be the sister with created things, I will get out of my place in their midst, they will no longer be mine—and then what will I give to my God? Nothing else remains for me than pure nothingness.
I felt so bad in thinking this, that I felt myself tortured. And my sweet Jesus, having compassion on me, and on the state in which I was reduced, raced in order to sustain me in His arms, and all Goodness He told me: “My daughter, what are you doing? Courage, you oppress yourself too much, and your Jesus does not want it. And then, the same suffering that you feel means that you do not want to go out of My Divine Will. And your will is enough for Me, it is the most certain pledge, and I keep it enclosed in My Divine Heart as the most precious thing, so that no one touches it but Me. I do not pay attention to the feelings of the creature, it is for Me as if they were not there, and many times they serve to cast her into My arms, so that I free her form this enemy that makes her lose Peace. …”